My husband is cheating on me with his ex girlfriend
I've been married now for four years, we have a child of two and half year. I discovered a letter through his mails that he wrote to his brother telling him how he is regretting to be with me and that he never loved me and don't know what really made him separate with his ex girlfriend with whom he had had about four years of dating.
I also found letters where he wrote to this his ex where he called her "his life'' and many other letter expressing his love to her.
He sent her money several times even during times he pretended not to have money for the baby and i. After showing him this evidence he said he loved me that the girl said she will commit suicide if end the relation.
The girl lives in another country. i told him to end the relation he promise he will do so since one year now but still he communicate with the girl and send her money.
When ever i ask he will say if you are not happy here you better leave. Am so hurt by this situation if want to divorce but am asking myself if i can recover from this. Because of this situation i lost two pregnancies.
What can i do? how can i restart my life? this marriage has ruin me. I love my husband and never cheated. But i need a new beginning.