Why Is Cheating so Addictive?

by Addicted to Cheating

Addicted to Cheating and Can't Stop

Why Is Cheating So Addictive?

I hear all the time that if you loved someone you would never cheat on them?

I use to believe this. I now know that is not the case. I personally love my boyfriend but I have been exposed to the cheating VIRUS!

CHEATING IS SO ADDICTIVE!!!!!!!!!!!

I made a terrible mistake about 6 months ago. I had a little to much to drink, one thing led to another (sounds like an excuse, I know) and i ended up doing it in a co-workers car. (first time I ever did something like this).

I don't know what happened to me, or what made me do it. But ever since that night I have been filled with a VIRUS that consumes my rational thoughts. The intense rush I got in that car overwhelmed me and I have cheated several times with this same co-worker in an attempt to feel the way I did that night.

I always feel terrible after I cheat, but the feeling goes away soon enough and thoughts fill my head of when the next time will be when I will be consumed again by this VIRUS!

I know It sounds like I am making excuses, but up until about 6 months ago I had never cheated. Now I can't stop. I know I love my boyfriend but things are now starting to change.

Why is cheating so addictive? I know I need to end this, but I am not sure how to.

I know I will be judged badly and I know that i should be but this still does not help me to understand why I feel this way and why I have become the person that I have become.

Please, if there is anyone that has felt this way please let me know!